Different

I've had this conversation recently, but wanted to get some of it down on "paper." Lately I have been a little troubled by peoples reactions to differences of opinions and/or beliefs. I've been looking at my own self and questioning my own reactions as well. Of particular note is that Maine has shot down gay marriage legislature today. It did not fail by a large % either, 53 to 47, I believe. But regardless, over HALF of the state does not want gays to be able to marry. I look into my own self and I think of that as just absolutely wrong. I feel that I see it for what it is, keeping a minority group of our society from having rights that the majority does. I look at the issue, and from its very root, it is what it is. We are basically denying the ability of one group of people to do something another group can. Seems pretty logically sound to me when viewed in this manner. Is my logic wrong? That question is what I keep running through my head. I question why I have such a strong and polarizing BELIEF in something myself. One problem I see with such a zealous belief in anything is that it tends to break down any kind of rational argument and discussion towards to manner. I hopefully don't want to be guilty of the same line of thought that I protest.

NOW comes the bag of worms. I try to think about what kind of people would vote against such an act, and why they would do so. Surely these people cannot be "bad" people. I can't really consider half of Maine just a bunch of assholes, right? Yet something inside me still feels somewhat angry, annoyed, and disappointed at the inability of my fellow countrymen/women to see an issue of civil injustice when it is right in front of them to think through. Several outcomes as to why people would do such a thing have crossed my minds.

1. They just haven't thought it through (ignorance or indifference)
2. They have thought it through and reached the conclusion to the opposite through some logic that makes sense to them.
3. They just go along with what is expected of them or taught to them without questioning.

I start to look inwards at myself, after asking these questions. I wonder what kind of major public issues are out there that I am either not education on at all, or have the wrong conceptions about. I think about some of the daily actions of my life that violate such rights in others, not directly, but by my support. I think I'm being too serious all the time. I think I'm not being serious enough. I think my head might just explode from the complications of it all.

Sometimes, at the end of such thoughts, as now, I feel like just giving up. This whole pursuit of "truth" and "meaning" sometimes seems so pointless. I never seem to run into an argument that can't just as easily have some kind of truth towards the opposite. If morality is supposed to connect me with some kind of truth...

I'm very confused.